May 6

May 6 It's ok. It's all ok.

It was a stream of consciousness writing session that ended up resonating with a lot of people.

It’s times like these where everything seems to be so unknown. I I don’t know about you, but I feel so powerless… and yes, I’m trying every damn day to focus on the things that I CAN control, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t still have a lot of feelings about the situation. Deep feelings, complicated feelings, feelings that I have no idea what to do with!!

And in a world where attention is focused on the highlight reels that are social media… it can be easy to feel shame about how you see your own life. And that’s exactly what I was experiencing. Without the personal connection with those that I’m closest with, I’m more than ever comparing other’s highlight reels — of acquaintances that somehow found their way to the front row of my life— with my behind-the-scenes, hot mess of a show. Yikes, talk about a recipe for an internal disaster!

I’m so tired of hearing things like ‘now is the perfect time to get your workout routine set up’ or ‘what are you doing now to keep busy?’
No! It’s not the perfect time to get any sort of routine together. It will not be sustainable, because we are in a temporary situation… and keeping busy isn’t on the top of my list… I’m focusing on giving my body, mind, and heart a rest. All of it.

So, today, I’m deciding and declaring that I don’t need to feel shame about any of my decisions.

I’m over it. I’m over feeling shame for not having it all together.

I have an inner wisdom of what I know I need that no one else can see.

So I sat down, and wrote out the things that have been heavy on my heart lately, and I gave myself permission… (yes, permission!) to feel and do what I need to, to get through this time.

Perhaps this permission is exactly what you need too. Because my friend, regardless of all of it.. it’s going to be ok.

It’s all ok.

It's ok if you haven't cleaned out every closet.
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It's ok if you've eaten all the snackies.... all the time... and gained weight.
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It's ok if you haven't figured out a perfect morning routine, or workout routine or any routine that you think is currently needing help.
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It's ok if you've taken days to rest. Rest your body, rest your mind, rest your heart.
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It's ok if you're simply getting by, and taking everything day by day.
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It's ok if today's news sends you into a scary spiral, or if it makes you angry, or if it makes you feel nothing at all.
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It's ok if you've spent time with close family and friends a few times to keep your mental health in check.
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It's ok if you hate zoom. It's ok if you love zoom.
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It's ok if you've applied for unemployment even though you've always said you never would.
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It's ok to not 'fill in the time' to 'stay busy,' and instead, use the time to gain awareness.
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It's ok.
It's all ok.
These statements are for myself, but maybe they're helpful for you too.
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It's ok.
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